There are times when you want to write more, create more, exercise more, relax more, travel more or do anything else which makes your soul sing.
But there are also times when life events aren’t conducive to those desires.
That’s where I am right now.
The day after tomorrow we see my mother’s consultant and we find out more about her cancer, whether it has spread and what the treatment is going to be.
I’m worried for her prognosis. I don’t want it to be horrendous. Of course I don’t. She’s my Mum and I want everything to be OK for her.
I’m also worried for the upcoming logistics. She’ll need more surgery. What will that be like and how is her recovery going to be? Then there’s the prospect of chemotherapy and/or radio therapy. How is she going to cope with that?
I intend to be at her side for all of it.
But how am I going to do that, and work, and write?
How am I going to publish my book in the next few months? I’d love to write more on Medium and benefit from the new payment model. I look at writers like Tom Kuegler, Shaunta Grimes, Todd Brison, Shannon Ashley and I want to be like them.
I’d love to have more of an income stream from Medium. I want to grow my list. I want to set up my own publication. I want to encourage people to write who struggle to do that.
I have such grand plans for my creative pursuits.
How am I going to do that alongside what I have to do?
What would I say if you were coming to me for advice on this conundrum?
I’d say — just do the best you can.
Write when you can, work when you can. Take care of your Mum. And take care of yourself.
That’s all we can ever do.
Just do the best you can.